What the hell is wrong with me?!

I can't keep it together- the littlest thing makes me loose it and I don't know why. I know that the Prozac isn't going to kick in immediately but what the hell.....I hate being alone but then I can't be with other people- would want to be with me like this! I don't want to be with me like this! Last week I had a few days were we thought we were going to have a manic upswing and not now- now I am wreck- I don't deserve to be a parent, I can't even take care of myself how in the hell would I take care of someone else?! I hate myself like this