My Heart Is Breaking

I just found out that one of my cousins, one that hasn't been ttc, one that shared that dreaded feeling- are they going to ask that question 'so when are you going to start a family dear'- I just found out that that cousin is pregnant- not planned, but by accident- she is 4 months pregnant, where I should be right now had I not miscarried in December. So, yes, she is also due in August just as I was- I had my breakdown already, I am hoping I don't breakdown in front of her- she didn't know that I was pregnant, we didn't get the chance to tell any of our family before we lost our sweet angel. I am just hoping she isn't due the same day that I was supposed to be due.