A New Year

Well 2009 will be over in a few hours and a new decade will be starting. A lot has happened in the past few years- we tried to start our family, I had several nursing positions that I really enjoyed, we have lost 4 angels, I was placed on medical leave then long-term disability. A lot really has happened, some good, some bad- some of I wish that I could forget and other things that will be with me forever. I spent a week in a psych hospital and 2 years being off of work. I know that these are all just random thoughts but this has been my life since 2005. I am going to try to go back to work in a few months and hope that I can keep it together. We finally made it through a year without a loss and had our last 1 year anniversary- I hope. I still don't like the holidays and am glad that they are almost over- we will soon be taking the tree down and although it is pretty to see it still breaks my heart that we will never have any children physically with us. I hope that the coming year is better- it can't get much worse.