Tuesday, January 6, 2009
This past weekend/week has been rough. I have had bad thoughts, breakdowns, wanted it all to end, etc. I see a new psych today, isn't she lucky. I don't know if it is the holiday let down that has me down or what, I just can't get out of this funk. I don't have the energy to do anything, I don't want to do anything but lay on the couch and zone. That is what I have done pretty much since New Year's. I occasionally shower if I think about or have somewhere important like a doctor appt to go to and even then it feels like a struggle to do it. I just don't care anymore. I get up take pills, zone and wait for the day to get over, I eat if I remember or think about it. I know my dh is worried about me, but I don't have the energy to care; he drags me out occasionally and then I come back home and zone some more until it is time to go to bed. That is my day lately.