Today was yet another reminder that I am not as far along on this journey as I thought that I am. DH txted me to tell me that a friend of ours that had also experienced a loss recently was now pregnant. Even now as I type this I am bursting out in tears. I am truly happy for them, I just wish that my emotions show this. I hate that the hormones are so screwed. I can't take back my choice, I know I made the right choice, it just hurts so intensely some days that we really won't ever be parents to a living child....only to 5 Angels, 5 beautiful little Angels that I will hold only in our dreams....sometimes I hate waking up. <3 <3 <3 <3 <3